Wow… I’ve just tasted durian puff!! And it tasted….absolutely like Durian!! Haha… Am I surprised or what?
If I wanna taste durian, why not just buy the durian? The puff is no longer…..a puff, overtaken by the strong taste of durian,
But then again, it is some innovation, I can’t deny. Just another ‘creative’ way of making some difference.
So what’s wrong?
My mouth stinks of durian. Haha.
I am confused.
Now that I am so close to getting it,
I wish to avoid.
I am confused.
Now that my wishes are granted,
I don’t know what to do with it.
Am i….
Selfish?
Dumb?
Lazy?
Pray I find solutions…
soon.
I wanna be a great artist of my life!!!
I wanna design my life - a better life! I wanna have control of my life. Don’t lose me!
No. No. No.
I want me to appreciate my design. I want a better design. My current design is just not good enough. I am sick of it. Start designing again. There is still time.
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Everyone is a designer by nature. Maybe trying too hard, it just won’t work. Just let nature take control, perhaps.
People asked me, "What course am I taking?"
I answered, "Architecture."
8 out of 10 replies are, "Good luck!" =P
Now, now, do I need so much ‘luck’ to survive this course??
Okay, really, it is not easy, many of us agree. Since the very first day of semester 1, my life has completely changed. Studio is my second home, I make myself comfortable there - cookies and more cookies, cup noodles, my tumbler and a sweater, essentials to survive the doomed few nights in studio before submissions. Just in case you don’t know, (the known fact for all aki and ID students) submissions are Thursdays and Mondays WEEKLY!!! It only means, that a new exercise is given to us every week, and we are only given days to complete. When I looked at the exercises, procrastination definitely can’t exist in my mind. The ball just keeps rolling the moment it started, neither a way of stopping it, nor slowing it down. In fact, it just goes faster!!
Wow, can luck really save me?? I doubt it. What can luck do for me? Indeed, by God’s grace, exercises are submitted on time (on Monday, of course) with yea, some encouraging comments for some pieces each week, trust me, totally feels good that all sacrifices are not in vain (especially when I got one from Dr Erwin, hehe!). But of course, even if I don’t get any, doesn’t mean my effort is wasted right? It’s all a learning process. And sometimes, yea, it’s just really weird, that designs and ideas just come to the mind. Just like what Alana said, with God’s help. Ideas beyond conventional just comes like a ‘ting!’(light bulb).
Well, sound quite bad perhaps. Many friends in hall ‘pity’ us aki students?? In some ways, yea. What to do? I come back from studio for breakfast (have yet to sleep), their hair are still in a mess, well, my hair would be in a mess too. They are heading to their room, ready for sweet dreams, I will be walking out of Eusoff, lugging my bag of pens, papers, etc.
But then again, I do ‘enjoy’ every stress, DEADlines, brainDEAD… Getting out at night for photo shoots, with a friend to carry my tripod, going around campus to get good shoots. Friends to spend the night at studio with, going crazy, sleeping on tables and thanks to ZiTong, my studio has a comfy safari bed, wah…can you imagine how comfy my studio is?? Yea, not forgetting the refrigerator he left in studio too. Cool eh??? Now, aki life is not too bad right? Some enlightenment! And nice memories. More to come!
However, thanks to aki too, we, students are so broke!! PAPERS ARE SO EXPENSIVE!! And a toilet template which costs 17bucks???!! I don’t want a toilet in my plan!! And yea, the daily Macs many of us have to survive on, like anything else besides that? We might all have to eat our papers soon.
It really sounds absurd. It is really testing my endurance and interest. Have you ever had so much doubts about the course you are taking?? After all the long considerations and mental preparations, it seems like it ain’t sufficient. Oh God, help me!!!
Being ’surprised’ with the warmest ‘welcome’ into the world of Architecture in NUS, trust me, adapting into studio life isn’t hard at all. We are all getting comfortable with the environment pretty quickly, like…do we have a choice anyway??
It is just weird, why do they have such high intake, only to push us to the limit, hoping that we leave for another course. It is just unfair isn’t it?? Trust me, the statistics this year should be quite mind-boggling. There are already two in my studio who are leaving for good, I mean, that soon?? Only one week!!
I wonder how well others are coping in the university, especially those in Malaysia, many were just granted courses they don’t even know exist!! Yet, they just go ahead, study for the next four years(??), graduate, and there, out into the real world. Will they ever think maybe that course is not for them and will have to switch to another course?? Maybe yea, they did think that the course ain’t for them, but do they have to make any drastic changes? Or are they allowed to? Or does it matter to them? Just get that damn paper and start earning bucks! Is that what life is suppose to be? Is that the role of the university? Is that the ultimate purpose of studying? hmmm… Yeah, I think so. Aren’t we just missing the whole point? If that is so, am I just being dumb, paying so so much even before I start earning anything, all the DEADlines, stress, sarcastic crits, blindly trying to grasp the ball Dr Erwin threw to us, and still have doubts whether I’ll last for the next five years? Hey Dr Erwin, it is not that I don’t wanna throw the ball back to you, I can’t seem to catch it yet, or have I? And I am really not throwing it back?
I do wonder why such people exist? In a world of his own, moving around the studio, experiencing space, in a way, trying to tell us something, yet, not too willing to tell us anything. Observe, observe, observe. Then, think and feel. Then, maybe analyze and still wonder what is he trying to tell. Maybe, I know. Maybe, I don’t know. But yea, such person brings difference to this most common world, filled with common people of common goals. Which makes me think, being common, is nice, just…common, that’s all.
I need my journal!!!!! WHERE IS IT????
I go shopping, and I wish, I have money to upgrade my style.
I eat in a restaurant, and I wish, I have money to eat something more extravagant.
I face problems with my mobile phone, and I wish, I have money to upgrade mine.
I am invited to travel, and I wish, I have money to go ahead as planned.
I receive an offer, and I wish, I have money to accept it.
I wish, I wish, I wish. Money, money, money. *knock knock* Wake up, my dear girl, and smell the coffee. It always seem like money is never enough. There are always good use of it, IF only I have that little bit more. Shouldn’t I be that little bit more satisfied with what I have, than wishing endlessly?
I guess that’s human nature huh? Forever hoping to be richer someday, to satisfy ourselves with the pleasures this world can give us. Can’t deny that this might be the purpose for some of us in life huh? Then, only to realise, that this purpose can never be fulfilled till our dying day, because the defination of being rich, varies with people and time.
Give me a million bucks, I am rich! But hey, didn’t you read or hear of the compensation Lim Kok Wing is giving his ex-wife for the divorce? RM11million cash!! Gosh… Yet, some did wonder whether the amount would be sufficient for her to survive and maintain her lavish lifestyle. She might become the poorest of her block!
And who knows? Maybe, just maybe, come the day when I am a millionaire, I might simply have trouble juggling with the money I have, and might just wish that I am richer. Well, I do hope to be satisfied with whatever I have, even right now. Count my blessings and forget the sufferings. I am sure my situation is always better than somebody in this world.
Money - a common discussion among friends.
We talked about how fast n easy we used up our salaries. Within a few days, if without control, our accounts can totally be emptied. How easy it is to spend, but so hard to earn.
‘No money!’ - a common phrase.
Someone I know, earns four figure pay 5 years back, said ‘I’ve no money!’ Now that she is earning five figure pay, she still says, ‘I’ve no money!’ Er….. When will she ever say otherwise? Thanks to the world who supplies pleasure to the many standards of living, we never cease to yearn for more, thus, money always tak cukup.
I rather not know,
than to know.
It brings hurts,
stress,
and grieves.
Living in happy lies,
brings temporary joy.
Ain’t that more comforting,
than the truth?
The truth,
is like a needle
that pierce through the soul.
But,
didn’t God say,
the truth sets me free?
Getting distracted,
loss my focus,
just wanting to get away.
But,
the problem remains.
What can I do?
But,
to believe,
God will never forsake me, us.
It is just a test,
to bring us to higher grounds,
but when can that be?
Ignorance,
is a bliss!!
Dance
as though no one is watching you.
Love
as though you have never been hurt before.
Sing
as though no one can hear you.
Live
as though heaven is on earth.
~Souza~
Is it possible?? Or is it just some false hope?? Motivational, and inspirational, it is meant to be.
It sounds…much ridiculous at times.
How can you dance in a crowd, yet pretend no one is looking at you?? Well, you dance on stage, is meant for the crowd to look at you, to impress the crowd…. Or perhaps I have got the concept all wrong. Dancing with deep passion, every step pouring out with heart and soul. Thus, dance, as though no one is watching you.
How can you love, like you have never been hurt before?? First love is the deepest, well, just true love that is. What about love in the family?? Broken homes, heart-breaking environment, etc. Aren’t the many out there desperate to be loved and to love?? A modern trend, perhaps, all these goes into a cycle, that, maybe a disaster might not be a disaster anymore, in time to come?
Sing, like when you are in the bathroom. Many think no one hears them in the enclosed four walls of the bathroom. Guess what? It simply amplifies them. It is just all in the mind, I think, that no one hears them. However, no one knows how many good tunes coming out of the radio, was inspired while in the bathroom. hmmm….
Live, like heaven is on earth??? Now, now, that is simply impossible. Life on earth is like a temporary shelter, us being just a passer-by. How many knows, how heaven is like??
Why am I writing this anyway? Maybe, it is just to rebut this thought in my head? Perhaps, writing whatever that comes into my head?
An inspirational quote is an inspirational quote, after all! Simply bringing some positive stuff into the world of negativity. May it be realistic, or not.
What can be my perfect holiday?
Now, I understand my parents that lil bit more, about relaxing at home during holidays. I could never understand why holidays were rather spent at home, why not go somewhere?? Anywhere but home??? Well, of course, even then, we weren’t deprived of vacations, that I must say, grateful for that! =)
My perfect holiday? One solitary day at home.
Explanation:
1. ONE: ok, maybe two, or perhaps a few. It depends on how long the social being in me can be confined.
2. SOLITARY: Alone??? Alone??? Yes yes. Alone!!! Spells F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!! Nobody to tell me to do this and do that, eat this and eat that, see this and see that………
3. HOME: Ahah! At home! hmmmm…. I’m beginning to sound like….my parents?? oh….. Is this a sign that I’m getting older? Oh heck, who is getting younger? Tell me!! Tell me!! Home is where I find peace, where I belong, my teritory!!!
I need it!! Maybe a day to do nothing but…. gaze at the ceiling? Read my favourite book? Fill my journal with endless thoughts? Stare at the tv watching nothing? Blasting the radio with unheard songs? Clean my home? Gardening? Read Purpose Driven Life? Read the bible? Most importantly, doing all these without anybody telling me to do so! Yes! That’s what i want.
I’ve got a job, not to make my life much more ‘meaningful’, heck, totally not! It’s just an opportunity I would not want to miss and regret, to gain experience most importantly, then the money-lah. This job has actually added another load to the busy-ness of my holidays. Memorising recipes? Argh…just what I needed, one thick file to read and complete–>assignments? Am not complaining!
Give me back my life!!! *grab grab grab*
To feel the boredom in life, is to appreciate the meaningful time that I’m having right now. So, give me my perfect holiday?? …..That’s how stupid humans can be at times. *shrugs*
muahahahahhaa……oh yes!!! It’s holidays at last!!! I know I should have written this like say….three weeks ago???
Life has been expectantly interesting since the day I stepped out of SPI on a Thursday morning, completing my Physics paper 2 with a sense of freedom and satisfaction. Now, I’m in my friend’s room in Jurong West, waiting for my flight to Perth!!!!
Yesterday, Lifegame camp just ended for me. A camp like no other!! It was like playing ‘The Sims’ - fulfilling basic needs, education, getting married, oh yes, you heard it right, get MARRIED!!! (well, don’t think far as to how to get babies yea..) Some say it’s interesting, and yes, maybe boring as well. It’s because there’ll come to a point of time in the game where everything seems to be rountinal - going to work, pay your bills, pay income tax, buy food, etc. Well, think about it, isn’t that what life’s gonna be??? That’s how it is in real life, not just the game, the difference would be that in the game, it last for few hours, but in real life, it last for years!!! Oh yes, life can be boring and purposeless, so what to do??? Well…..to be continued!!
Got a flight to catch……
10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1..HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Oh yes!! The beginning of year 2-007!!
